Creativity cannot be squeezed out of someone
it is unsustainable on all scales
You may be able to manage it for a few elongated short weeks
but it dies
as I've found out
I thought this might be healthy
I always thought I needed to be more healthy
Maybe this isn't good for me
Maybe I'll stop at the end of this month
The sea roars, infuriated at the border
between land and itself
So it pounds against the cliff
and the cliff shreds a mere few crumbs
for a few thousand years
Then the cliff is absorbed
Only the sea remembers
My sense of what is good and not has left
I feel drained and forced?
Maybe
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did that help?
no
Isn't it shameful that this is the longest I've written in a while?
I haven't been doing this for so long
but I've forgotten who I'm writing for now
I don't even read my stuff anymore
it feels like slop
Am I a content farm?
every day
for a year
seems impossible
...
is it?
I don't know anymore
what I'm doing
why I'm doing it
who I'm doing it for
but all I know
is that I'm doing it
Who knows how long this will continue
Will I be happy when I finish?
Every day is a blur
I've achieved nothing
these holidays are a rest
from what?
certainly not myself
wasn't that my goal?
was that my goal?
what's my goal?
do I have a goal?
should I have a goal?
why should I have a goal?
when is a good time to start having a goal?
am I too late for a goal?
what counts as a goal?
what is a goal?
uh
why do I have a goal?
This isn't poetry
it's just ramblings
to make myself feel better
at the trash I produce daily
Am I a content farm?
Deep blue
a nice hue
disturbed thoroughly
by a boat's heavily
thrusted base
I have 5 minutes of the night
to write my final thoughts for this day
a day I won't ever get again
what's so special about 24/4/25
anzac eve?
grains of grandma
thrown into the gust
above the sun-reflective
ocean.
Today it is calm
for us
Thank you for spending your time with me
I appreciate it truly
all that I write is usually
meaningless
or abstract
I don't know half the time what I write
I don't know why you spend your precious time reading this
but thank you
for taking time out of your day
to spend some short time sitting next