becoming more than before
not growing
but developing?
it's hard to say
or explain
some feeling
or any feeling
but i feel a tension
and a story
and that is how life is
but
i want it like in the books
in the movies
in the music
every emotion is so prepared
and exact
and it harmonises with everything else
and life
does not
so what am I trying to say here?
i don't know