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Another freezing day, alone, cold, longing.

I've lost track of how long I've even been

up here. I'm getting tired and not sure if

doing this was even a good idea.

What are we looking for? Why is this so

important anyway?

Searching for the meaning of this whole

thing makes no sense.

I probably should get up. I don't really feel

like freezing. At least not yet.

The hike is as always. Tiring and cold.

Everything here is exactly the same: tiring

and cold.

You know I've been thinking. Maybe being

afraid of heights should've stopped me

from doing this. I am going to die over

nothing up here.

I miss him. I really miss him.

To think I haven't seen him in an

immeasurable amount of time.

Up here, everything is timeless. There is

no sense of time.

At this point of my thinking, I reached for a

rock that fell.

It fell down and down and down and down

and down.

A rumble.

Another avalanche. I felt like ending

myself the first time, but by now my home

would be ruins anyways.

Nothing even matters.

He mattered, but he isn't here anymore, is

he?

...

He wanted me to get to the top, didn't he

I'll do it for him

Without him, I wouldn't be doing this

I would be with him again

Fine

Everything up here is eternity

Even day and night doesn't change

anything anymore. Everything looks the

same and everything I write here is the

same.

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It's been a bit since the last time but I

actually have made enough progress that I

can see the summit.

No more endless clouds, there are all

below me now.

So is my fate I guess

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I'm here

The beam of light is in front of me

I must dig

Digging gets tiring after a while

Maybe I should have slept

I haven't slept since he left

Maybe this isn't real

Maybe this is just a dream nightmare

Or purgatory

Or hell

It feels like hell

What did I do to deserve thi-

I found it

The infoshard

I plugged it into the device and oh...

oh

...

I feel like nothing

Just like the infoshard

Nothing

All of this

Nothing

Meaningless

I climbed all the way up here

For nothing

I should see him again

...

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Awake

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