Standing by the lights again knowing how
stupid this is. It's become a routine with all
the daily checks. I don't want to look
anymore at night because I'll freak out.
There should be other things on my mind.
I should be sleeping, I should be working
on my essay, I should be learning my lines,
I should be remembering my friends and
family before they all die out, I should be
praying that things should be better. But
instead, I'm looking for something in my
room. I shouldn't be watching these stupid,
fake, scary... Things. They are designed to
do this. To fester in your mind overnight,
keeping you on edge. It's so dumb, it's so
stupid. Why am I thinking about this. Just
relax. Just calm. Just stop thinking. Take
the sleep stuff and forget everything. It'll
be okay. If you wait another day. Everything
will be okay.
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It's been 4 weeks like this
on my essay, I should be learning my lines,